As I’m writing this I’m trying to get Reagan to go to sleep. It’s been about an hour since I started and this has become our normal nighttime routine: Feed her till she’s basically falling asleep, swaddle her, feed her some more if the swaddling makes her mad, and rock/bounce/shush/do anything I can to get her to fall asleep hard enough to not wake up when I put her down. Sometimes it takes 2 or 3 tries putting her down before she’ll stay down. She’s been fighting the swaddle pretty hard for about a week but she can’t stay asleep for longer than an hour without it so…she stays in the swaddle, even though I feel like I’ve contained her in a straight jacket. I’m also starving because I didn’t eat dinner but once she does fall asleep, sleep sounds better than food so I’ll go to sleep hungry. 

I’m sure I’m doing pretty much everything wrong to get Reagan to sleep and it’s going to bite me in the butt when we try getting her to sleep in her own room and in the crib. But I feel like I’m in survival mode and whatever works temporarily is good enough 🤷🏼‍♀️. We’ve been using a bassinet swing for about a month now, instead of the regular bassinet, because it’s slightly inclined just enough so that if she spits up (she’s a big time spitter upper), she’s not laying flat on her back. BUT it snuggles her pretty closely and I sometimes gently rock her to sleep once she’s in it because it’s a swing. I’ve even sometimes resorted to turning the swing on and keeping it on just to keep her asleep. So again, I’m sure the transition to the crib is gonna be real fun! 

If it’s not obvious already, I’m a wee bit overwhelmed lately. I feel like I finally figure out things that work and Reagan likes and then a couple days later she doesn’t like that anymore. I also am not giving Winnie and Mater the attention they deserve when David isn’t here. Winnie especially. Mater gets extra attention and gets to go for rides or “adventures” as we call them, by himself because of his chemo appointments. Ironically he hates going for rides and Winnie LOVES them, so I feel extra bad leaving her alone when we go. If I thought I could handle both dogs and Reagan at the same time I would bring her but I can’t. Mater also I s now feeling much better which is amazing and I’m so thankful, but it means he’s got his energy back in full swing and I feel awful not being able to play with him as much as he clearly wants. 

Update: Attempt number 1 to lay her down was unsuccessful. She looked so sound asleep considering her head was tilted back and her mouth was hanging open but as soon as I laid her down she started fighting the swaddle. So we’re back up and rocking. 

Oh, Reagan has also been sick now almost 2 weeks. She just has a very stuffy nose. I took her to the doctor last week because it sounded like the congestion was in her chest occasionally when she would breath, but no cough. Apparently what we were hearing/feeling, which was basically rattling, is just the gunk in the back of her throat from post nasal drip and she just has a cold we need to ride out. They tested her for whooping cough and it came back negative though so that’s good at least. 

Update: Attempt #2 seems to be going more successfully. I’m not going to jinx myself though. 

Another thing that has added stress/anxiety was, 2 weeks ago we discovered our storage room on the bottom level of our 3 story house was flooded. Long story short we had to vacate for a week so that multiple leaks could be fixed. We are seriously blessed to have my mom so close by and willing to let us take over her house for a week with Reagan and the 2 dogs! But it was still so stressful. Packing for a newborn to be away from home for a week is not joke, you guys! That’s also where the swaddle fighting started, which I was hoping was all just because she was sick and in a new place, but it’s continued at home. 

Well it’s been 10 minutes and she’s still asleep, so I’m going to take that as my cue to go to sleep too before I accidentally do something that makes noise and she wakes up. Sorry for the rambling and pitiful post, I’m just assuming nobody is going to read this anyway lol. 

On a lighter note, Reagan turns 2 months old tomorrow! Eventually I’ll get a 2 month update up. Maybe.